Growing Up

Growing up

Oh what a burden it is

To mask all emotion in all it’s rawness

To pretend to be calm and mature at any given situation

To not be able to cry to your hearts content

Because hey grown ups seldom do vent

Or should I say they’re not supposed to do that

But beneath the layers of countless masks

Lies a lil child who’s scared of tasks

Not knowing what to do

Not knowing how to be

Fearing all judgement

Succumbing to expectations

Wondering if she’s even doing it right 

or can she do better

And what exactly is the price for doing even better to the fullest of her might

It’s now that I realize that 

The peak of adulthood 

Ain’t as astounding as it seemed as a child in childhood